Hi, I’m Kjersti!

Like most people who throw themselves into the depths of life and their inner shadows, I had good reasons for doing so. My attraction to this line of work wasn’t born from a place of contentment, inner peace or fulfilment. On the contrary, I tried to rid myself off a deep sense of shame and unworthiness that at that time, I had yet to identify. I just knew it as a black ball of anxiety that loyally followed me wherever I went.

I was looking to cure myself, but nobody could show me how to do it. Many people seemed to have a piece of the puzzle, just not the whole picture.

I fought my shadows and denied my darkness for years, even if my all black outfits suggested otherwise. Not until I learned to sit with myself and to greet my inner shadows with openness instead of resistance, with love instead of fear, did things begin to change. And with most things concerning inner work it didn’t change in the ways I thought it would.

Of course it didn’t. 

I expected myself to come out the other side as a newly born extroverted, easy going, unopinionated, lighthearted person. I had been conditioned to believe that my personality traits were liabilities, not assets. That they were all rooted in trauma and as soon as the trauma was integrated my whole personality would be rewarded a brand spanking new version of itself. Like an extreme makeover, but from the inside.

Needless to say, this isn’t what happened. If anything I became more myself than ever before and my black outfits went nowhere.

The thing that actually changed was my own perception of myself and the realisation that what had always felt so wrong about me, could actually be what was right about me. A terrifying, yet extremely liberating thought.

The biggest turning point though, came as a result of finally involving someone else in my healing work. Only when I let myself receive unconditional presence and compassion from another person, I truly began to heal. For the first time I experienced in my body how it felt to be worthy of someone else’s complete acceptance. To have someone sit with you and hold space for all that you are is mind blowing when you come from a place of unworthiness. It’s the best gift I ever received and I’m proud to say that I’m finally ready to pass this gift on to you.

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